Still alive, just thought id let you know that!

Cya

Well what a shit day this has been, i got my lip pierced at the side and guess wot ................ its fucking fallen out and healed up! Well that was a waste of £25, FUCK!

Apart from that work has been pretty shitty, and tomorrow is gonna be the same, exept for the fact that ive got a shitload of college work to do in the morning before i go to work, SHIT!

God im in a bad mood!

For the first time in a while im happy again. I feel like ive been given a new lease of life and in a way my mind has changed! I can no longer be arsed with drink half as much as I could before! I get paid tomorrow and I would normally go straight to the pub and spend most of my money, but instead im gonna go shopping have have some fun when im not drunk! Im not sayin im gonna stop, but im not gonna drink half as much as I used to because quite frankly I cant be arsed with it, and it turns me into an arse sometimes anyway! That means I might turn into a lightweight, ah well its no bad thing just means that ill spend less money when I do go out, and thats a good thing!

Well things with me and April seem to be better than ever before and college is going well too! I thought college was shit at first but ive grown to like it better than my A-levels, its different but better in so many ways! I would elaborate on why things are so good with April but its a private matter between us (and some things with friends) that I dont want any random person reading so if you want to know (you probably dont but hey) come and ask one of us, we wont tell you everything tho ;-) lol.

*hugs April* love you babz xxxx

Cant be arsed with anything at the moment, its far too hot to even move let alone do anything else! God im bored stupid, im just sat in my living room with April! And shes watching 'Ghost Ship' (yippee, wot a shit film)! And now it looks like she is gonna go to sleep, its just grat isnt it when the first chance that you get to be together alone and all the opther person wants to do is sleep, marvelous just fucking marvelous!

All that aside it hasnt really been a bad day, work was quiet! But it was very very very hot (over 100 degrees F at times, thats about 20/30 over what it was outside)! I might be getting my tatts done soon :-) (finally) I cant fucking wait :-)

Cyas all soon (I think)

Spinning further, deeper
I know you're out to try me
I'm not in this to be a slave
I push the dirt, make me feel you hurt
Locate what swallows life
Night bird you build my world

And then I close my eyes
And then I close my eyes

Judge me now
Used to be afraid to let it show, bow down
A king in my own mind
Everything's in place so much brighter from today

Drown the monster
Make all bad dreams go away
Whatever it takes to keep running free
Open scars, the quiet place
All the bridges fall to the ground and you say you sacrificed

And then I close my eyes
And then I close my eyes

Judge me now
Used to be afraid to let it show, bow down
A king in my own mind
Everything's in place so much brighter from today
A king in my own mind!

Bored, and bored some more! I finished work and have since then been...... bored! For some strange reason I am doing quizzes on Zenhex that I know I have already done, god I can be really sad at times!

I might go to bed, but I really cant be bothered (now theres a contradiction if ever I heard one, lol).  

Fuck, Ive got work AGAIN in the morning, and again at night! God I want a weekend off, just so that I can spend a bit of time with my dad when he is sober (and thats a rare occurance at the moment).

Cant really be arsed saying anymore, night.................................... *goes to bed*

Ok, from now on I am not going to put any bad stuff on this blog because when i do it always makes me feel shit! And almost always makes other people feel bad in the process, amplifying the problem! This is the reason why I have deleted all of my old blogs that referred to certain people in a certain way, they also brought back too many memories that I desprately want to forget, and at the moment I am doing a pretty good job of that!

So from now on only happpy thoughts are going on this blog (god thats almost a quote from Peter Pan, some pixie dust and a happy thought and you can fly, lol). And if I have a problem with somone, or something, then i will sortit out face to face! That is the best way for everyone, especially me!

Only a few hours unitl I see April again, yipeeeeeee! I can't wait to see her again and hold her! He he im dead happy at the moment, and I hope you all are too!

Im also getting more shifts at work, so that means more money, and that means that I can get my flames done SOON (I hope).

God it seems like I havent blogged in ages! Actualy i have but ive deleted them because ive said things in them that were hurtful, and they were things that i didnt actually mean!

I would spell properly and correct my grammar but i really cant be arsed!

Well, all that aside i am actually really happy at the moment! i dunno why because April has gone to Download and we are away from each other for 5 days (yes i know 5 days isnt actually that long but it seems like forever)! I miss her like crazy and want to be with her, if only I hadnt been so stupid i could be having the best time of my life right now spending time with her (no im not referring to sex) and watching some of the best bands in the world this weekend! Grrrrrrrrrrr, im so stupid at times, and especially with money!

Well sod it its happened now and i cant be there so i just gonna look forward to seeing her on monday (shit thats three days away (just))! God i need to piss soooooo badly (i sure you all wanted to know that, i hope all who know me have now al got the mental imagery, lol)!

April, I love you! And everyone else (people i know - my friends) i love you all too, only in a very different way! Hope i see you all soon (especially JP, dude we need to go talk, me + u + everyone else)!

Bye for now, *hugs April really tightly* xxx

When it rains it pours....

Dead happy at the moment, things honestly couldn't be any better! Had an excellent night last night, and not just for the obvious reasons. Because for me just being with you is enough to make me happy!

*hugs April*

*hugs everyone*

Well i had my first day at work today (actually about 30min ago) and i am fucking knackered! Considering this is the first day of paid work that i have ever done i feel great (apart from the painfull feet lol)

On the downside i havent seen April in two days (ok 2 days isnt actually that long but it feels like two years). But i get to see her in less than 12 hours (11 hours, 15mins to be exact) YEY!

*goes to bed*

Tip - Never try to shallow fry mini potato wafles!

Why? Becayse they turn to fucking mush and stick to the bottom of the pan! Instead cook them in the oven as they taste like waffels

Anyway! Had an awesome weekend (apart from what almost happened) and im sorry if what I said or did pissed anyone off at Ashleys on Friday night! I cant remember much of it!

Weird weird day!

Very fucking weird!

Tomorrow should be better!

No, not as dirty as the title sounds! Yet still rather funny, the story goes something like this...

We (Me, April, Sam, Becca, Jason, Elliot) were all sat in Costa very bored! So I decide to throw a teabag at Jason, what ensued was a teabag war to end all teabag wars! Most of us got covered in cold + smelly tea, except Elliot who got away lightly (you lucky bastard)!

What happened was perhaps the most random thing we have all done when we havent been either pissed or stoned! Jason decided to hot sam with a spoon, spoon wars now began! Jason created the "Spoon Of Doom", oh the hours of fun I will have with this! So we all decided to get spoons and whack the fuck out of each other with them, my knees hurt!

So it was a fun day that involved lots of sexual innuendo! Ah such childish fun!

Oh + sorry to April for being an arse the other night, I do wanna be with you! It was just that I was pissed (I know thats no real excuse but hey)!

Dead happy at the mo!

Got the perfect girlfriend, she is everything i want and more!

And even more amazingly im stopping smoking! I aint had a fag in the last two days, not bad considering i was on 10 - 20 per day!

*huggles lirpA*

REALLY BIG SHOE!

Well this has been a fucking awesome day! Some people have re-thought their opinions of others, and Im so happy about that because it makes my life so much easier! Biiiiiiiiig hug to all!

Im dead happy at the mo! And i hope you all are to!

*loadsa huggles*